It's only words

I've been writing for the better part of my existence (rather, since I finally learnt how to write properly, using good vocabulary (let's just say that, I didn't discover words till MUCH later.)) I have had this blog now for the last 6ish years and before that I had another blog - so I guess its right to say that words mean a lot to me.

I have used words in all types of descriptive ways. I've used them when I was angry, heartbroken, happy, in hate, in love, excited, confused, nervous.. You name it and I've used words for it. And for the most part I think I'm pretty good with communicating my thoughts and feelings through words. I often end up talking for ages, about lord knows what. It's only when I recently revisited some of my older posts and realised that I used to talk such crap. I mean, wow. I was such an idiot. Good riddance to bad vocabulary, grammar and general annoyances (I bet I'll be saying the same to this post a few years later).

There is one thing I have found though. Words are hard to find, well the right words are hard to find when you're saying goodbye. I use a lot of humour to cover up a lot of things, like a lot of people do. I may crack a joke in a "depressing" setting, because of an underlying unpleasant emotion I can't otherwise let out. There are also other times where words have failed me - when I miss somebody, or when I have to convey affectionate and loving feelings towards somebody. I find it hard and slightly uncomfortable to talk about certain things. Sometimes my actions mean a lot more than my words.

I find words to be incredibly cathartic. You're always waiting to hear something from someone, whether it's a "Yes, you've got the job" or "you've lost weight". It puts things into perspective. Words can make you feel like jumping off a cliff, if they come from a nasty place, they can make you feel like you're the most beautiful thing that ever walked the earth and sometimes can give you a reason to get through another day. I think people need to use words more. Be creative. There's a plethora of phrases, sentences, speeches and languages you have at your disposal to say something, anything to another person. Or yourself.

A lot of times I think, words can be dangerous. Especially when you can't find the right ones, and say something out of context. A lot of misunderstandings in relationships for instance, begin with general misinterpretations of words said or not said. I think it's an art. If you are one of those people who always know what to say and when to say them, you're good. Nay, great. And as I say that, a certain individual comes to mind. You know who you are.

If words weren't so powerful, politicians wouldn't win us over (No, David Cameron, not you), we wouldn't swoon over romantic comedies, read endless books, listen to music, and have Literature as a subject.

So people who read my blog (I'm trying to think of new words to describe my international fan-base. Yes, I've reached Russia, Brazil and Italy!) use a new word today (such a "Cher" comment from Clueless). 

Alas, here it is. One of the best ways to express thoughts, opinions, feelings and emotions through words. A song.