In exactly 7 days time, I will be taking the first step to a new phase in my life. It's been a long time since I took on a phase I actually wanted to live through. This particular one though, I've waited ages for..
It's kind of surreal to be honest. Everything I wanted, I got. I wanted to get into Royal Holloway, and I did.. I wanted to do Psychology, and I'm getting to do that course.. I wanted to move out, and wanted to become independent (in a non-losing myself kind of way).. And most of all, I wanted this feeling that I have right now.. This feeling of absolute freedom.. and feeling like "THIS IS IT!".. Everything is starting to make sense now.
I'm finally at a place where I feel more comfortable than I thought I could this year.. Through all the trials I went through, I never thought.. Not even in my wildest dreams that one day, I'd be standing here.. Just days away from the life I've wanted. Sometimes it can feel a bit scary.
The year that I had so far, since leaving Dubai last year.. Was one that I never want to experience again. I am thankful for the bad things I had to endure, and the pain that I had to suffer.. It is because of that, I am here today.. Standing straight. And obviously, I need to thank one particular person for having so much patience with me.. And seeing me through all of that, and standing by my side.. He's been an angel.
I can now say with honesty.. I am alive.
PS - To everyone beginning university this year: Good luck, and have an absolutely fabulous time. Enjoy it as much as you can, and don't be afraid to try anything new =)
My heart is in my hands
My head is in the clouds
My feet have left the ground
My life is turning around and round.
Every voice inside my head is telling me to Run like mad..
