Revelry

Here come's the end of another year. My second year at University. And what have I learnt? Oh so much.

You know, whenever you look back on a year, it just seemed impossible for so much to happen in such a short span of time (btw, let's be clear, the year I refer to is from September 2008 - Current date). I mean, surely so many events to take place, you need at least 12-15 months. But this time, I don't even think it's been possible to digest the enormity of situations. At the time it was just comprehending what was happening and flying past "Go" to deal with it all in a few short days.

I've learnt a lot this year. Such as, giving yourself time and getting to know yourself is a very important thing I seemed to have misjudged before. I actually missed just sitting around and doing nothing, or maybe catching up on sleep these past few months. I learnt that taking care of yourself is so very necessary, health wise, mentally and physically. It's amazing what starts to happen when you begin to neglect yourself.

There was a great sense of loss this year, but also so many other things to gain. It may sound cheesy, but I've become a very different person to who I was a year ago. I'm so much more self-assured, and stable. It feels like now, I have somewhat a sense of direction of my future - maybe not crystal clear, but an outline if you will. I'm still not racing to get to places or anything, I'm taking it a day at a time - living in whatever I have for the day and making no plans whatsoever.

This year has been exciting, and difficult. Living with my friends was amazing, because we became a family and began understanding each other on different levels to before. We knew when the other needed space and stayed away, we knew when certain conversation topics were out of the boundaries so they were not touched at all. It became my life, and I loved it, however unstable it got sometimes it was the most amazing experience ever, and it feels really upsetting that it had to come to an end after a year.

Something else that was learnt this year was that things are very uncertain. Although I've known that for years, it was put into practice this year. Tickets were booked for holidays that were never taken, plans were made that never went into action, people left when there was nothing wrong.. Such things made me realise that uncertainty is actually pretty exciting in a very unusual way. At times though, it became hard to think far ahead - and by that I mean further than the day we were in. It was always a "let's see how it goes" situation in the house. And I got very accustomed to that, which I am very happy about.

The family atmosphere that was created was amazing. There were always so many people over at our house, that it felt like we were all good hostesses and very welcoming. It felt good to know that so many people felt cozy in our house. I loved it. Sometimes I did feel a little clobbered and just felt that I needed my own space with just us 4. But I guess all of that comes with the territory.

I feel like I've grown up so much, and I would never go back and change anything at all - despite the tears, fights, awkwardness and other such negative emotions felt over the course of the year with each other and within our personal lives.

Got one more year to go, and things feel different already. I wonder what's in store next year. Hmm.